"Relationships can be unpleasant, and there’s a reason that the vast majority of them end. No matter how much you love someone, you can’t be together without mutual sacrifice, and deciding to stay together isn’t a decision you make once; it’s a decision you make every day, for the rest of your lives together."
- “Before Midnight is the most important cinematic love story of all time.” A review over at The Week. (via nobunnyluvsyou)
Sarah left today and I wish she could have stayed forever. It was so nice to be able to hang out and talk face to face, even though we couldn’t do too much since of the terrible weather. Here’s hoping she goes to ut Austin for grad school :)
I wish I could have stayed forever instead of coming back to finals. UT Austin! <3
I have so many things going for me at the moment: i just spent an entire summer in europe with the one i love, i am about to finish 2 bachelor’s degrees in december, i already have a paid internship waiting for me back in europe in the spring, and i am going to see all of the amazing people that i love back home soon.
This summer I have had so much time to reflect about my life so far and myself as a person and despite all of the wonderful things that are happening, I am desperately conflicted as to how I see myself. I hope that I can clear this up soon because it hurts my heart a little every time I think of ways that I have hurt people in the past and honestly just turned my head when something of importance was happening with a friend of loved one. I finally get it, I was so completely selfish in many aspects of my life and I expected everyone else to lift me up and make me feel better when things were bad for me, while at the same time not understanding how selfish I was being in the process.
All I wanted was to be liked, and to do that I thought I had to live a certain way, which is absolutely not true. Also, my goal now is not exclusively just to be liked. I’m not sure what my goal is now, other than to just be myself.
The only problem is, I am not sure if I can move past the shame I feel when I think of things that have happened. Even though no one else involved thinks about it anymore…I am stuck with a pang in my chest every morning when I wake up thinking about the people and friendships I have lost along the way.
I don’t think this is the way it should be, but somehow I need to find another way.